This weekend was a whirlwind. I have to admit that I don't like being busy. I know the kids don't either.
My husband just left for work, he kissed me goodbye and sighed, "Thank goodness the weekend is over!"
Nothing's ever cut and dry. I struggle with obligations and doing things out of guilt. I'm struggling with one thing in particular. It's funny how you see something coming for years that you're kids are involved with and don't do anything about it because you're "comfortable" essentially. Even though you've talked about it with your kids before, they don't want to do anything about it either. And the deeper you get into the activity, the deeper and more complicated those feelings twist and get tangled inside of you and your kids.
I had a talk with my daughter last night, just the two of us cuddled on the bed and we got some good things out. There were tears...happy tears of just finally coming to a resolution. She was scared that she would be ridiculed. I told her that hard as it may seem, we have to do what's right for ourselves. We have to be respectful to others but ultimately, I'm trying to teach my girl that she's strong and no one has the right to take advantage of the love she has for herself.
Having a teenager is different. If I thought that giving birth and raising small children would make me stretch and grow as a human being, all I had to do was wait to have a teenager. There's so much more each day to learn about ourselves and so many teaching moments that are painful and healing at the same time.
Now, on to some purely happy things. Amelia worked so hard on a history project with a friend for National History Day. This was completely on her own, this project. She loved it, which is all I wish for with my kids that they are seeking out learning experiences on their own and loving them. She and her friend won a special award for the best project on western history.
Also, another happy thing this weekend was that my baby turned 6! This guy of mine is the bomb. He makes my heart sing. I hate to clump all the other stuff in with this birthday post but then again, life isn't so clean and neat. If you saw us this weekend, it wasn't all about him unfortunately. He did have a crazy, jumping around, candy filled sleep-over with a friend. And then when the dust settled, we sat down as a family and had a fabulous dinner and sang happy birthday and ate cake! Happy Birthday Eli!!! ♥